i've been overwhelmingly tired over these last few weeks and i have no idea why
my immune system is getting weaker by the hour and the word anger definitely defines how i emotionally feel today
i'm constantly worried about everything and should really consider taking school more seriously
better yet, be social with outsiders again
today i had a really nice conversation with one of my parent's customers. she had the most intense colour of wild red in her hair that it kinda bloomed everytime she played with her hair.
she was quite amazing to be honest. she even recommended me some books and we talked about some of the bands she knew. her music range was awesome and we talked about how we both hated being in 'the crowd', it was epic
she loved me overall with how wordy and negative i was being. even when i was ranting about going shopping in shopping malls with stupid people around, listening to stupid mall music, looking at stupid overrated clothing and people just talking shit in general. i especially hated when i try on things in stores and the shop assistants doesn't leave me the fuck alone. i hate it when they stare because i somewhat feel fat about myself(yes i am aware that i have self esteem issues)
i'm self-conscious yet i don't give sympathy to anyone

my hi and bye friend went through my ipod today, she 'wtf' at more than half my bands.
dsfdfsfdfdsfdfdsi love it when people look at me funny after looking at my ipod. i am an asshole
i want to live in canada or america. andddd i might be getting get free clothing soon!
i'm stoked actually, look how good they look:

i heard it's really comfy@____@
*want even more*

i had a little brain storm session with my tutor today, it was brilliant and this is what i ended up writing up for my english assessment, 'who am i?'
"It is difficult for a person to sit down, and really consider all of the pieces that build upon his or her own character. Personally, I found it especially challenging when I began to write out a list of words that describe my personality, and came to realize that many of these words directly contradicted one another. However, despite this fact, the contradictions seen between words did not disprove the truth of the other, but instead worked together to effectively draw up a summary of me. For example, I am an angry person by temperament, yet can be easily overjoyed by the simplest things in life. I am, as well, an anti-social socialite: the kind of person to prefer my own remoteness, but easily adapt to unpremeditated social situations. Furthermore, my psyche is easy to understand, but impossible to figure out. It is in my nature to be multifarious, but all of my varying characteristics tie together collectively to make me the person I am."
... i surprise myself sometimes
current mood: impressed
current music: 100 grand canyon - cancer bats